Post by Evie Winslow on Jun 14, 2012 19:57:00 GMT -8
The look he was giving her both frightened and scared her. She had gotten similar looks before but from no one that mattered but coming from her son..it was heartbreaking. When he slammed his glass down Evie jumped a little, the spell she had casted earlier blocked out the unwanted noise as well as kept their conversation from others so it was a unexpected moment when the glass clanged together. When Julian asked if Casey knew Evie took a long calming breath before answering. He knew I was pregnant before I left... that part was true at least but even if she could give him a straight answer she didn't know if it would be a wise thing right now. Thankfully...her memory loss came in handy for once. She could not for the life of her remember if Alex had been brought up in recent conversation between her and Casey.
Evie's eyes wandered down to the table..she couldn't handle looking at him anymore if he was going to look at her like that. It felt like he was ripping her heart out from her chest. As her eyes made it to the ugly, stained bar table she saw how white her sons knuckles were. If he squeezed that glass any harder it was going to break. You have every right to hate me Julian..and I won't stop you Evie could feel the tears that threatened to fall but she couldn't do that..it could be taken as a ploy...a ruse to get him to feel sorry for her. Evie didn't want that, she didn't want him to have pity on her. She had messed up, had made bad decisions but she did what she had to do with what she was given and if he couldn't understand that-.....maybe with time.
I knew this wasn't going to be a happy reunion..I knew that there is a very strong possibility that you are going to leave here with a very...tainted view about me and that's OK. You deserve to be angry. I let you down. I wasn't there for you when I should have been and I can blame Trevor for that but I wont...at least not fully. Everyone makes mistakes, we all do something we are not proud of. Some are worse than others but it's what you do to right the wrongs you've done that matters.
Slowly she brought her eyes back up to meet his I understand if you want to leave but, you should at least get all your questions answered before you do. You deserve that and I want to give that to you. She kept using that word 'deserve' but it was true. He deserved that and so much more and if he allowed her she would give it to him..Evie would do everything in her power to right the wrongs and make sure Julian had everything he could possibly want. She owed him that.